The day after Christmas..

I came home was like, 12 midnight ady… feeling tired, not going to online until 1 o’clock or something because I’m too tired and before that I’ve sent a message to my friend.

what do we do during Christmas Night,

1. gather at a restaurant then have dinner together, grandparents are not here because my grandma is not feeling well, she just came back from hospital.
2. we went to grandparents’ house and preparing for Gift Exchange.
3. we wait for our grandparents finish eating their dinner..
4. then we start Gift Exchanging.
5. there’s so many people screaming, jumping for no.8.. because no.8 is from my grandpa, it’s an angpau. (with money in it.)
6. after that, I got a lunch box container (that’s so cool.. I love it..) my sister got no.8.. many people was like, screaming ‘OH NO…!!’, that makes me laughed. And my cousin’s brother got my present, a notebook. (the cover make them laughed a lot man.. almost like, 5 min? no, 15 min of laughing..) because the cover page is a book title from the ancient China, when you open it, is a blank page for you to write something on it. (they keep laughing never stops.. xDD)
7. adults was playing card games and our kids or teenagers play board game and chit-chatting.. until 12 midnight.
8. then we went home.

That’s all I does during 2010 Christmas’s night…

We went to Sunway Pyramid shopping~

Dear Diary,

me and my family went to shopping at Sunway.

I was so happy that I finally can get out of the house and go somewhere else...

haha~

I'm getting bored,

so.. yeah.

and I've bought a something that can put your hand phone inside o.o

lol

not very sure how to call THAT thing o.o

so....

my dear phone got a new home now!

lol

xDD

Happy Halloween!!

Dear Diary,

today is the day of Halloween.

But our country didn't celebrate for it,

because this country is Islamic..

So, yeah..

we can't go to neighbor houses to collect candies or whatever,

because here is Malaysia!

-sigh-

Malaysia has their own rules,

which is different from the others..

I HATE YOU!!!!

Look at the people from other country,

they can collect candies from the neighborhood and so whatever.

Why am I will appear in this country,

I'm really DID hate Malaysia.

Why? Because this country is too hot and have strict rules...

like,

I have pimples,

and my mom keep saying my pimples keep growing and never stops..

Damn it,

and the rules said that girls and boys don't know what age need to go somewhere and train like a army.

W.T.F

World War is over already, hello?

why do we need to be train to become army?

and we'll be into the life full of torture-ness for 3 years!

(if I didn't mistaken..)

Malaysia~

I'm kinda don't like youuuu~~~

if I can,

I'll fly through the sky and go to somewhere else...

just don't want to stay in this country!

arghh...

there's so many racism in this country,

I want to be in a country which is peaceful~

-sigh-

but,

there's no where else to be peaceful...

no Chinese novels to read .__.

Hi,

long time never write blog I think...

lol

because I'm lazy..... and nothing to talk about..

.__.

so.. yeah,

I'm in holiday already,

wheeee...

cuz I don't want to go to school,

know why?

there's nothing to do in school..

B.O.R.I.N.G

so I call my mom to fetch me from school early on yesterday..

hahaa...

and btw,

there's no Chinese novels to read...

.__.

I have to repeat and read it again..

because now don't have any best stories on stores..

-sigh-

Today is the 1st day of my holiday! xD

Well,

after PMR I've took all the books home,

so no need to go to school anymore,

and teacher told us to stay at home..

lol

1st time heard teacher said that,

haha~

anyway,

my mom was so happy after I've told her that tomorrow no need to go to school..

Better la, because my mom happy wat...

So.... yeah,

1st day of holiday is today~

yipee~

Yesterday at Gaia online...

29^th of September night, Wednesday

I was on Gaia online and saw my friend,

Silent Killer.

(got other alphabets but I forgot.)

I say hi to him,

And he didn’t say anything.

I was like

‘throw a car’ to him as a statue.

He put a question mark on his avatar’s head..

I thought he has forgotten me, and the parrot.

I was like,

So disappointed.

I said

‘he has forgot the parrot.’

And he replied,

‘I didn’t forgot about the parrot, Moe.’

I was like,

OMG!

Felt so touching that he didn’t forget about me.

Haha~

And when I want to close Gaia,

I shouted and said

‘Holy hotdog and the toaster! Need to go.’

And I saw he also shout and said

‘bye Moe :)’

Then I reply him as ‘Bye’

So I closed the game and went downstairs and drink Milo.

I FEEL SO TOUCHING!

That was the 1^st time… xD

New day again....

New day has arrived...

I've being very scared about PMR,

only 4 weeks,

well...

not really scared...

I just don't know why...

=.=

so many holidays works...

got History,

Geography,

Mathematics....

so, yeah...

that's all..

other subjects I don't know la..

lol...

keep doing Geography,

cuz.. I think that's the easier subject,

so that I can find the question's answer in the revision book.

haha..

History? hell no.

I can't even understand Malay language,

just some, of course.

Mathematics...

right.

I don't understand how to do...

I'M WORST AT MATHS!!!

-cries-

*sigh*

PMR just around the corner,

*sounds exciting but it's NOT!*

hope my friends will get better result.

(of course they will, they're so smart!)

.....Okay,

that's all I need to say for today.

Bye bye~~~ ^_^

School starts at 1st of September

Today is Monday.

-okkayy..-

looks kinda bored to me,

-what?! Are you serious?-

because nothing to do except for the housework or something blah blah blah...

-I thought you can play gaia online-

and,

yes, the school starts on Wednesday after the Malaysia celebration...

W.T.F!

I hate malay language,

it makes me sick!

@_@

-I know right?-

so

nothing special about the celebration...

you know,

there's so many racist problem in our country wtf

-I don't know why somebody combine us (Indians, Chinese, Malays) together...-

sigh...

other country looks so peaceful...

I love them! xDDD

-especially Germany, I want to go there!!!-

last time I saw 1 video on Facebook,

someone post it,

it said

-translated-

'This is the country of Islam, you don't like it just leave Malaysia.

-look, what kind of logic is this...-

then I saw so many Chinese people stand up and shouted...

they don't even know who created Kuala Lumpur?

HE IS A CHINESE PEOPLE!

Stupid Malay people for never respect our Chinese people....

-I'm kinda racist but I DON'T CARE!!!-

Ughh...

Tuesday can go to school ady...

wow,

can't believe that the school has expanded the holiday till Monday!

x3

I'm happy but kinda sad,

because PMR trial is coming!!

-sigh-

I saw so many people said,

'I miss school....'

or something,

only 1 I saw, he said

'Monday no school....'

something like that..

seems so many people want to go back to school and study.....

trial is around the corner

and I'm still studying Science only....

kinda afraid...

cuz,

still got many subjects...

especially Mathematics...

-sigh-

I'll fail it for sure!

-cries-

Well, I wish everyone get their good marks on their trial exam!

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE~~~!!

;)

my hair went short.... -cries-

T.T

people will laugh at me ahh...

I HATE THE HAIR.....

T.T

my mom talk to the barber that the hair need to be like girl,

and then?

SO SHORT!!!

LOOKS LIKE A GUY!!!

AHHHHHH......

-cries-

I like my old hair better....

-_-

Felt so lucky but at the end is the worst.....

1st,

I saw his car just in front of my van while traffic jam near my sis's college.

(Monday, I think..... or Tuesday)

2nd,

when teacher explain and talk about 满江红,

the first thing that come out from my mind is a music band.

Then few minutes later,

he asked,

'Teacher, 满江红 not a band meh??'

(Monday, I think..... or Tuesday)

I was shocked after hearing this,

felt so...... perfect!

Me and him are 心灵相通.

So I was like, very happy......

then today,

I saw him entered Sandy's class and he was talking to Sandy's classmate,

Evelyn.

After school he also ran to her......

-cries-

I wonder should I give up or continue....

I really felt upset when I saw him entering Sandy's class....

because he'll never find for his friends in there, except....

Evelyn.

I thought that she have a boyfriend when I was Form 1....

I hope that she won't break up with her boyfriend... please...

-cries-

I've learnt how to float while swimming!

Today,

I heard Shaun said that today was junior class, there'll be many of primary students,

I was afraid that, the lessons doesn't match me,

and other place I thought is,

THE POSITIVE WAYYY...

'I don't even know how to swim, so I just go to junior class la'

and finally,

school's off.

I go to mandarin extra class on 12:30pm till 1:30pm,

then I go around everywhere after Sandy went home,

I follow Nicole & Pamela....

3:00pm for swimming!

I went there at 2:45pm,

I saw some people inside the swimming pool finally...

haha~

then I learn and learn,

finally,

4 o'clock arrived.

Teacher dismissed the class and I went to change,

and then mom came,

she's waiting outside there...

x3

I felt that I've finished so many stuffs in school,

so happy for the 1st time..

hehe~

I'm so forgetful..... *sigh*

Today I forgot to bring my pencil case to school,

what a shame,

need to borrow books, pencils, pens from Nabila and Elly..

thanks to them,

I've done some work that teacher gave us....

hehe...

THANK YOU,

NABILA YAZID & PUTERI ELLY ZAFIRA!!!

^_^

and by the way,

Pn. Salmah is very angry with us,

she said good luck to all of us and she went out from the classroom...

=.=

everyone was staring at the door after a few seconds,

then they started to talk and laugh....

wtf~

Saturday & Sunday still need to go to school...

Damn bored...

our 'beautiful' principle has cancelled our weekend holidays...

we have to go back to school for 2 days!!

-cries-

I hate the school nowadays,

CCA all changed....

everyday we have to attend from now....

-sigh-

By the way,

during English lesson,

someone used my marker pen to draw Pamela's pig face on the white board.

I was like,

laughing...

xDDD

then Pamela DID saw that, too.

she keep asking 'who draw that?'

and nobody answer her...

xDDD

Finally finished the folio....

Yay!!

today Ms. Sue called us to sit at Maths Specialist's room and finish up our folio,

and I finally finished it and pass up to her and shut her mouth..

I'm worried about Shaun,

I saw that his folio is so thin....

-sigh-

By the way,

long time never talk about Zhe...

haha...

guess what?

I've a secret that never tell, even my younger sister.

Okay, here's the story...

22nd of June 2010,

we have a trip to Kuala Gandah, Pahang.

when teacher arranged our class to share the same bus with Zhe's class,

when we went into the bus,

teacher said that there's 1 more people left and wonder who is that...

and then Zhe's friend said that he's following another bus...

I'm so sad,

he's running away from me....

escaping....

-sigh-

what am I going to do??

sad....

That's the story,

the conclusion of this story is,

Zhe is everywhere hiding from me and he don't want to see me...

again....

forever.....

Happy Birthday!!

Today is my 15th birthday..

x3

and also,

Father's Day!

xDD

Hope my 1st wish will come true....

=)

Got internet that is working properly....

Yay~~!!

Finally got internet.....

x3

there's 43 mails in my inbox,

and I've missed out lots of new items in

Restaurant City,

Pet Society,

My Empire,

Hotel City,

and all that stuffs....

-sigh-

and my birthday also around the corner.....

x3

I don't wish to have any cakes or whatever stuffs,

just normal...

xDDD

and hope I can received presents from my friends...

long time didn't received......

because I've changed school.....

Primary school's friends is even better than secondary ones....

so happy during the primary time.....

x3

You think that I want to see is it?? grr..

God...

after Pamela borrowed an A4 paper test pad from me,

she start to write so many things that hope her boyfriend will forgive her...

my god,

what kind of girl is she??

o.o

she be with her boyfriend's friend so near you know,

and Shaun see them holding hands together like a real couples...

=.=

please la,

got boyfriend ady also need to find the another 1...

see this playgirl?

she don't even know that the real playgirl is herself...

You know after she wrote the paper with many words on it,

she let Kar Wei to read and then help her to post it to her boyfriend,

what kind of true heart is this??

if she really want to forgive by her boyfriend,

she can post it herself with a true heart,

but she didn't...

When Kar Wei read the paper,

I said,

'wow, so many words!!'

I was like,

acting.

then she said,

'don't read people's secret la Eunice!'

......

that's what she said to me.

I was like...

=.="

thinking,

'you think that I want to read it?? I don't even care A THING about you!!! Why?? because you betrayed your boyfriend and don't have a heart to apologize it... I'm just acting, and you'll like.. so sensitive.. wtf..'

-sigh-

so other people please don't be like this girl,

she's a playgirl and she didn't realize it...

You know last year when she talk about playgirl,

she was like,

so pro you know!

and she did some points of playgirl will do....

that's her...

=.="

wtf~

Mid Year exam is near.... *sigh*

Mid Year Exam 2010 is in this Friday,

21st of May...

-cries-

I heard that Maths got so many topics...

but my father said that I must remember the formula then okay ady...

BUT!

I'm still felt so panic,

why?

because got so many Form 3 Maths topics' formula I don't even know....

I know some, but I dunno when to use that formula...

haiz..

so,

I'm gonna fail my Maths again...

I'm not that smart in Maths...

why they make Maths so important??

I know is important but,

the Mathematic founders has create so many freaking formula....

ARGH!!

I hate'em!!

Science I think okay la...

some know some dunno....

normal...

BM worst,

no need to think about that I can pass that!

I only knew few of words...

=.=

I'm worst in writing..

but summary okay la...

normal....

English...

God,

my English is worst...

-cries-

BROKEN ENGLISH

WTF!!!

Chinese okay la...

normal can pass...

KH,

no need to think about that,

I'll fail that!

History, Geography and all of that sure fail...

-sigh-

I'm the stupidest in the whole world......

=\

all fail...

that's why I wish that I can die in no feeling....

so that my parents won't get upset on me...

=]

I didn't go to school today...

I didn't go to school today,

why?

because my parents can't fetch me after the extra class,

-sigh-

they always like that...

if transporters,

I'll have to wait till 4:30 pm...

my god,

so I ask my father to fetch me,

and then,

he said,

'2 o'clock I have a meeting...' blah blah blah!

and I asked my mom to fetch me,

my mom use another words to ignore me...

she said,

'I call transporter to fetch you...'

my god,

why they cannot fetch me???

I've been left by friends,

even family also....

-cries-

the next day,

my mom didn't woke me up,

she straight away call the transporter that I'm not going to school,

when I woke up at almost 6 o'clock,

my mom said that don't want to go la...

-sigh-

why can't they fetch me......

I've been lonely and lonely....

-cries-

I wonder why they don't want to fetch me to the school...

you know, all parents fetch their children because they love them...

some parents got work to do still fetching them...

some parents are too busy,

so they sent their child to the transporters....

but what about mine parents???

they're so relax man....

when I came back home,

I saw my mom is not THAT busy...

she is at her room with the loud musics, she'll sleep sometimes,

and sometimes she went to meet her friends and blah blah blah.....

when I call my father to fetch,

he always said that he's busy,

because he's busy to see that bitch....

-sigh-

look, they're not busy at all.....

why should I be in this kind of family...

I finally know the truth....

I finally knew it!!!

Remember what yesterday I've wrote that I dunno what reason that they angry each other?

Because my parents sat down at a restaurant and eating dim sum.

there's a guy which is selling durian,

he asked my parents want to buy it,

and my mom was like looking at the durians,

all durian not nice...

so she say she don't want,

then father saw he cut so many,

so he want it all of them..

mom was like

o.o

and then my mom said the durians is from Thailand,

not 猫山王...

I dunno my father got listen or not la..

-sigh-

he bought that for RM 200+!!

I was like shocked...

RM 200 something still want to buy,

and then dunno mom or father very upset about the money...

and then they came home, mom was cutting the durians..

there's whole bag of it man...

so many!!!

O_O

and then some durian not nice...

some better la,

my mom kept them into a Tupperware..

and guess what?

when he knew all the durians are bad,

then he pack all the un-open durians and put them into the bag

and

he throw all the durians inside the Tupperware also!!!

omg...

then he go find the person who sell the durians,

he bring hammer with him man...

o.o"

then he was like want to fight with that person,

so many people are watching...

=.=

then when the person take some dunno what weapon la..

my father scared and start to flee!

When I finished listen to this story from Ivy,

I was like....

wtf at the last part...

I wonder what happened to my father,

why he suddenly become like that??

and my mom said he's kinda mental problem,

I got a shocked while mom said this...

I can't believe that my father has changed,

he's not the past year's father anymore...

I was sad,

I cried yesterday night,

father got too much of stress from that bitch.

-cries-

I hope that she can stop giving stress to my father and let him go.....

she make my life become darker and darker,

she've destroyed our love of father...

我已经失去父爱了....

father have so many problems because of her,

he'll always came home late because of her,

he earn money so hard because of her,

he has done so many things to her!!!

why can't she let my father go??

-cries-

my father had too much stress,

so he become like that.....

if I can,

I'll take him to a doctor and decrease his stress...

-sigh-

it's getting worst and worst....

God,

please save our father, I don't want him to have mental problems or something like that...

I want him to be as normal as past years....

please....

I'm getting lonely in the house....

I'm getting lonely and lonely nowadays...
because my parents keep angry at each other for no reason...
(I dunno la... cuz they didn't tell me...)
-sigh-

Today is Mother's Day,
and we suppose to go and have a dinner with my grandma from my father's side..
but my mom didn't go....
I felt...
kinda weird...
1st time that my mom didn't attend with us to a dinner....
things are getting worst,
I was keep praying to God for giving us peace to our family...
I keep doing that last time,
but still,
things haven't change..
It's getting bad and worst.....
-cries-
wwhhyy....
I don't want this things happen to our family....
I think of the stuffs, that lovely moment I've been...
it seems like a dream when I was small...
I can't believe that our lovely moment last time,
and now it become a dream!!!
-sobs-

I hope things will going better and better, please don't getting worst..
I can't stand it anymore~
please......
>_<

My god, I missed his race on Sports Day! DDx

Yesterday was testing of Sports Day,
I saw him sitting in front of me,
then later he went to race,
I saw him running so fast and so cool~
x3
so many laps man...
I dunno how many laps he had run,
and then I saw he's the last place while running with the others...
o.o
then I was like screaming,
Ganbatte kudasai~~!!!!
then he was like running 1 lap,
he stopped at the start place there.....
he walk back to his place slowly,
then sit down and rest...
I keep looking at him, but he never knew...
but that is awesome,
isn't it??
xDDD

The next day was the REAL Sports Day,
I didn't see him for a whole day man....
before I'm leaving,
AND THEN!!!
Secondary Racing started,
what the shit la...
I was so sad man....
Never see him.......
And I saw Shaun was like...
downstairs helping the injured people...

-sigh-
no chance to ask him did he saw zhe...
-cries-

My face is so painful after doing the press pimple thing...

-cries-
so painful!!!
my god, but...
they said, cannot eat fried or something blah blah blah...
I wanted to eat Famous Amos cookie...
T.T
My favorite cookie man...
x3
stupid pimples...
you know, when she press the pimples,
I was lke screaming,
Tasukete Kudasai!!!
(help in Japanese, 'Kudasai' means in danger)
-sigh-
my tears was like...
start going out..
T.T
and I scared my sis said something to me,
so I just tahan la..
tsk!
I hate it la...
I DON'T WANNA BE PRETTY!!
DDx
( I don't know why)
I want to be normal.....
not because of painful la,
cuz I've no best friends at all!
and not close to people...
just -sigh-
I wish I can die man..
I wonder why I'll come to this world....
to let people bully?? laugh??
and I'm stupid, yes..
that's why..
I'm a rubbish....
my mom said, my sis said,
everyone said it.....
little thing also cannot stand...
-sigh-

wish I can die with no feeling........
^_^
then everyone not going to worried such a rubbish kid anymore...
but I still don't know when I will did this...
hmmmm.....
and I want to be alone!!!
that will be better and awesome for me... =)

Came back home late... bad luck~

Holy shit!!!

We thought that today must stay back otherwise will kenal marah dengan teacher Azlinda...

so we stay back lo~

and then,

I asked Shaun whether he got stay back or not,

he said no...

wtf~

and I thought Qhalim got stay back too,

can't believe that even he is.not.staying.back.

DDx

only me, Sandy and Wei Tung... for marching..

when we arrived to hall,

the leader said,

there's not enough people for marching...

SO

THEY

CANCELLED

!!!

DDDDx

I HATE STAYING BACK IN SCHOOLLL

-cries-

you know after school,

I was waiting the van to come...

and I was hoping my parents can fetch me after school...

-sobs-

and finally,

the van came...

kinda worst van...

and TRAFFIC JAM ALSOOO...

DDx

and the engine keep dying...

lol

haiz~

and uncle stopped the van at beside of the road,

for letting the smoke from the boiled water to come out...

IT WAS LIKE SO LONG MAN...

-sigh-

and after that, waja uncle came..

THANK GOD!!

and I was came home at 8 something...

SO

DAMN

LATE

MANNN...

and 1st time sitting in the car during night time...

o.o"

and by the way,

in the van,

the primary morons are so noisy man,

I can't even sleep..

they keep screaming through the window like

crazy monkeys man..

I almost can't stand it,

I wish I can call them to

SHUT

THE

HELL

UP!!

you want people to notice you is it??!!

if some people can't stand your voice,

they'll came here and hit you like hell man,

and then you'll cry like baby..

so DON'T SCREAM LIKE MONKEY LA...

Orang gila pun tak macam ini...

APA HAL??!!

Nak gaduh dengan orang lain ke??

and make us go home late...

-sigh-

and the worst is,

when I come out from the STUPID VAN,

I said excuse me,

he was like don't have any reaction.

DAMN HIM!!!

and he block the door!!

I was like screaming,

WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM NOW LA??

BABI YANG GILA TU!!

MOVE LA, FATTY!

AND GET LOST,

IF UNCLE IS NOT THERE,

SURE I'LL KICK YOU TO THE METAL FENCE

TO CRACK YOUR STUPID BRAIN....

then when people scream move la..

then he move..

SUCH A RETARD MORON LIKE HIM!!

GEEZ...

I think he want all people to notice him..

WTF x2..

NOT HANDSOME OR COOL ALSO!!

WHY MUST LET PEOPLE NOTICE YOU??

GET LOST LA..

geez..

orang yang BODOH punya..

ARGH!

Omg...

Omg!!
Mrs. Chee cut his back hair....
he looks weird!!
-cries-
if he didn't cut by the headmistress,
he'll be like.. so COOL!!
but....
-sigh-
BUT!!
it'll grow again...
^_^
that'll be awesome... haha~
why she cut his hairr...??
-cries-

I hate KH's wood work...

Arghh...
I really did hate'em..
everyone keep borrowing the hammers around,
and the school seems so rich why not buy us more hammers to use??
geez...
and if I say no,
they'll like.....
ruined the friendship or classmate or whatever it is...
-sigh-
I use the nail hung wrong place (the lower part of the nail went wrong place)
wtf...
I was thinking if I can give up the wood work man..
so damn cacat...
that nobody will compare to.
And,
why this world must have 'project' this kind of stuff??
when teacher ask us to separate to form a group,
all people was like.. divided them into other groups except me....
I'm always the last 1 that they decided to join with who... haiz..
I was like, whatever they said..
cuz other people joined another groups,
and I have no place to go...
how can I decide myself?
if I did, the person won't..
like during ICT lesson,
teacher call us to form a group,
then I was like ask kar wei to be my partner..
she said yes,
but after she discuss with other girls,
she call me to join another group...
-shock-
haizzz....
I wish to change school,
temo...
my result are bad...
where else should I go?
no place to go!!!
-cries-

I always have a question and I asked myself sometimes,
but..
still haven't get the answer..
Why I'll live on this world??
and I believe that I'm not from this world, and is from other places....
but where??
I don't know....
-sigh-
what should I do during this days in this world??
I become a rubbish in this world..
R.U.B.B.I.S.H
I wonder if I disappeared on this world,
those people will felt happy and teachers no need to worry that got such a weird, stupid/rubbish student in S3-5...
I'll be glad...
and everyone will be glad..

And how am I gonna do?
he's not going to accept such a me anyway...
like nasser said,
'SUCH A LOSER'
-sigh-
yeah, I'm a loser....
THE BIGGEST LOSER EVER...
my result as bad as shit,
my face is ugly...
and he's still in love with kar wei....
but I cannot jealous....
cuz,
that's he choice..
how can I change it??
but I know if someone read this she'll said
'don't give up!'
but how?
I really don't have any ideas to keep me not giving up....
I was thinking,
if I said to people that I like him,
pamela they all won't support me.
They'll will support only 1 person that he like:
kar wei.
-sigh-
so...
I can't get too excited....
he have choosen her...
how am I going to change his choice???

~lonely forever~

Homework many like hell man...

I hate geografi la...
so many notes need to copy...
DDx
h~e~l~p~
T.T
Can't even sleep early, mom....
=X
there's so many homeworks....
=.=
why everyday also have so much of hmks...
I HATE THEM~~~~
I want to kill myself.....
-cries-

Lion dance in school....

The school hired some people from other school,
to show us the Lion Dance.
............................................
and after we've go into the hall,
so many primary people excited abt the lions...
The teacher keep speaking
"Students please remain seating.."
but nobody listen to her man...
I was thinking,
she wear so nice but nobody are listening to her...
=[
The Lion dance are nice....
and I saw HIM, keep moving forward while talking to his friends!
I was like, wow.. that's great!!
<33
HAHA~~!!
so damn happy man..
and during the Mandarin lesson,
there's no teacher...
DDx
and The guys playing arm wrestling,
I be their audience.. lolz
some people look at them and some people they're chatting with their friends..
I saw HIM sitting at his place quietly.....
O_o
I just felt kinda weird,
so I turned my eyes to the other side...
haha..
Hope he can notice that I'm xx xxxx with him...
<33
and hope that he can accept....??
(lolz.. wtf, that's just my IMAGINATIONS...)

Maybe not going to online for 3 days....

Hi!!!
Long time never write blog...
=.=''
because sometimes malas sometimes busy doing those stupid homeworks...
>_<
hmm....
Imma...
Not going to online for 3 days,
Because I'm at Ipoh, my hometown...
so, my pets will be dying......
T.T
Especially my pets' petlings....
hope they'll not going to run away....
>_<
and...
Nasser's acting weird nowadays...
he's like...
following me to library, walking beside me after school...
haiz...
maybe I guess wrong or something...
haha~
hmm.....
I WISH I COULD GO TO INTERNET WHILE AT IPOH!!!!
I'M VERY SCARED THAT THE PETLINGS WILL RUN AWAY AFTER 3 DAYSSSS!!!!
-sad-
T.T
h...e.....l....p.....

Mid- Valley's decorations for CNY very nice...

This was the deco for Chinese New Year from Mid Valley (Megamall),
Nice right??? hehe....
All in red, during afternoon, they have a fashion show here....
the music was so loud.... =.=''''

Hope everyone Happy Chinese New Year!!!
=]

The homemade noodle is yummy....

Dear diary,

Today I was so damn hungry after came back from school, my mom called me to drink healthy juice (dunno how to called it in english, chinese is call 营养餐), and I just ate banana cake while drinking it.

After that, maybe two o'clock something or three, I'm hungry again... So I find for foods downstairs, I saw a hot-dog bread in the refrigerator, so I just took it out and put it into a oven.... and, I turn the time as same as my mom did. I'm so blur that I thought it'll wait till IT FINISH HEATING!! I didn't realize that until I back from outside for collect the dry clothes with my sister....

And I smell something burning, so I quickly ran to the oven.... I saw a black bread inside... IT STILL BURNING, OMG!! Then I quickly close the oven switch for stopping it... I use the handkerchief beside me, I took it and open the hot oven. And took out the bread of course, I ate the middle part of the hot-dog and it's head I just tear them away.... cuz it burnt, the bread too, I just ate the bread inside.... some la, cuz I taste something like.... chemical or something, so I just ate some only.... I felt I was so unlucky that time..... I was soooooo BLUR AT EVERYTHING, EVERYTIME!!! haiz.....

I'm still HUNGRY here....... so I went upstairs to sleep for stopping my stomach for torturing itself.... when I woke up, I saw all dark in my room. So I took my phone a light up while standing up from the bed and turn on the switch...

And I went downstairs with hunger, I heard my father said that he's going to buy some foods outside. And then I just wait in my room, later, my father called me down for eating noodles, I take a look on the table, wow... Mom cook at home, COOL!! I was like, hurray~~!! We have foods to eat.... wheee... so I quickly ran to take a plate and a fork, while taking the fork, my mom gave me 1 fried egg that she just finished cooking it. Then I go to the table and took some noodles and put them into my plate, it was SO DELICIOUS WHILE MIXING SOME 蛋黄汁... SO YUMMY!!! I felt like so happy while eating this.... xDDDD 好幸福啊~~~~~~~!!

I'm thinking abt him.......=.=

Dear diary,

Today we have KH lesson in the Cookery Room, after teacher has taught us what to do, she gave us some pocket files from Form 3 last year.....

And then.... Guess what? Dunno Nabila or Elly got his file, I've heard Elly said: 'hey, eunice's boyfriend!' then I was like.... don't mind them, just keep writing... then Elly called me: 'Eunice, nicholas!!' (she raise the file, when she said it, the class was so damn quiet)

After KH lesson, we went back class and ready for the next lesson... I keep thinking abt him, I dunno why am I still thinking abt him... I keep telling myself that he's a playboy, I thought I was so glad that he's not at this school anymore, I thought I've forgot abt him..... but why...... why am I still thinking abt or care abt him anyway??!!!

I was trying to forget everything abt him, but..... finally, I knew was.... I can't forget abt him... either I tell myself that he's a playboy, BUT still cannot .......forget........ I thought nowadays nobody asked abt him, so I'll forget him easily... I think....? But, now they're talking abt him behind me during Science lesson.... how can I stand it....? I keep thinking and think, I'll felt sad....

Maybe when my friends talk abt him, I'll felt so happy cuz they're now caring abt me.... haiz..... but, those old memories keep flying around my mind if they keep talk abt him... I'll felt very sad.....

I've an idea for forget everything abt him, is to.......... find a new crush and forgot abt him..... but now, I haven't find a new 1... that means I'm so ugly..... being fooled by him, damn him!!

Sad Girl wrote on,
2010/1/7, 6:27 pm

Back to school tmr!!

hmm....
We're going back to school on Monday!
means, tmr...
haiz...
FORM 3!!!
DAMMIT!!
PMR is coming very hard this year (2010)
=[
Teacher said that last year PMR was so damn easy man....
=.='''
why.......
torture...
us....
hmm
hope this year will be better than last year...
-pray-