It's been a long time..

It's been a long time that I've never had such a happy moments with my sisters before,
we were playing Samsung Galaxy Tab's app.

Especially the talking cat and dog,
so funny and cute, I love them!
And another 1,
which is my sister newly downloaded.
It's the santa and a cat sitting there..

Almost all of them,
are so cute!

Happy-ing

I'm glad that my dearest sisters like my Christmas gift for them..

MERRY CHRISTMAS,
EVERYONE!

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas!!
Hope this year's Christmas will be better than before :]

Going to be busy tmr?

Because I've heard from my friends that,
we can go to school and buy books for next year already.

I didn't realize that,
school didn't inform us so I have to ask somebody..

After coming back from school,
have to study for the subjects..
(Well, some subjects I don't want to study of course.)

My father promise me that he'll take me to school and buy books for next year..

NEXT YEAR IS A BAD YEAR FOR ME..

@@

feel like searching for some jobs...

Just got some news,
my mom said that we're moving on 22nd of December!
which is before my books that I've ordered arrive.

The same moving reason again,
I don't want to move again!!
> <

MONEY problems again,
that is why I hate it so much.

but without it,
you can't do anything you wanted...
F.U.C.K.

(Sorry to say that but seriously, getting frustrated with MONEY problems..)

I wanted to do something to help solving these problems..
but HOW?

I don't know how to drive,
sixteen here..
if got a job,
have to ask my mom to fetch me,
I don't want to be a burden of my parents.

I really don't know what to do!
is so sad that you wanted to help so badly but can't do anything because of some reasons..

This year surely is a bad year...

Waiting...

On 9th of December,
I've ordered two novel of romance,
my mom just paid by using bank-in yesterday..

Have to wait for it to arrived my house....

waiting..

this was my 1st time order stuffs on internet...
-excited-

Favorite anime voice actor!!!

1st,
Miyano Mamoru.

2nd,
Daisuke Ono.

3rd,
Daisuke Namikawa.

4th,
Yuichi Nakamura.

They're really awesome!!!

My dream come true!

Today because of November not really go to school many times,
so my mom willing to fetch me just to save transporter's car fees.

I was so happy that my mom finally willing to fetch me to school and after school!!
Because always,
my mom will called transporter for fetching me,
even she's not busy or whatever.

but today,
my dream come true...
the day I was wishing for it so badly.

^_^

Am I going to blind soon?

Yesterday my mom bought me to a shopping mall,
she took me into a saloon and change the hairstyle,
and took me into the spectacles shop to change my glasses..

my glasses were fine,
I don't know why my mom wants to change it.
and then,
guess what?

I'm very afraid going inside because,
the power of my eyes are way too high.
My parents will scold me for sure,
it increased till 700 something ady...
-sigh-

I'm going to blind soon,
and stuck in the darkness, forever.

Breakfast time!!

My mom prepared a great and awesome breakfast today,
which is my favorite Garlic bread!
With some fruit juice of course,
best breakfast ever!

>w<

Totally forgotten..

I didn't realize that today was my father's birthday,
until my mom reminded us this morning.
My youngest sister got a present for father, of course.
Me and my sisters have nothing to give but sit together and had dinner together.

Happy Birthday,
Father.

Pastaaa...!!!

I'm nearly becoming North Italy from the anime called Hetalia,
know why?

Because my mom will cook pasta during lunch time,
which is Spaghetti with sauce.

Anyway,
it taste good!
I love almost everything my mom cooks.

>w<

Holiday~

Today,
didn't go to school but I was suppose to go,
just to finish up the remaining art folio.
But,
almost all of my friends going to absent that day.
So, I'll continue it on next week Tuesday.

Hope can finish it soon...

Is it really obvious or something...?

My class-mate who is also be in the same van as mine,
Ong.

Who knows I obsessed with cosplayers,

I was so surprised when I heard him said that,
I can't believe that he actually knew it.

Because he doesn't care about other people much,
for example,
me.

It seems really obvious,
I must stop showing photos to my friends now,

too bad..

:(

Busy these nowadays..

Greetings,

I was very obsessed with the PS 3 game called Folklore recently,

because the piano song of it is so awesome!

But too bad can't beat the boss in Chapter 1,

was on the way to Chapter 2~

So, the photo above is another thing I'm busy with.

I have to translate almost ALL of the Malay word inside the book into Chinese words which I can understand it, then I'll have to read and look at it.

Because I don't kinda feel like the teacher teaching this subject will like,

explain very good.

Hey, I'm a slow learner,

I can't learn something that fast!

I need time to absorb new stuffs... too bad

:[

There's one time,

I wish I can bring my whole laptop out with me,

just because I need the Google Translate thing.

I can't understand some Malay words that teacher talking, which is so damn fast.

That is the reason why I wanted to bring my laptop out with me so badly.

-__-

I wish to request to the teachers who speaks Malays to translate them or explain in English as well,

I didn't have my actions done yet just because I was afraid, of teachers or even classmates.

They'll be like,

looking down at me.

That is the reason why I kept my questions of the lessons in my heart,

I've had enough of insults!

If,

I didn't ask something that I don't understand to the teachers or even parents,

they'll started to say how stupid I am or other insulting words that causing me having no confidence at all.

Even I have a little, fragile of confidence,

too bad that they'll still going to destroy it..

-__-

If I asked,

they'll do the same thing which will harm my fragile confidence.

I WILL KEPT MY SECRETS SINCE THE DAY I BECOME MATURE THAN ME IN LOWER SECONDARY..

look how foolish I am when I have the flashbacks...

-sighed-

Why we must learn Malay language anyway.... I HATE IT!

:[

Finished watching anime!

Hakuouki Shinsengumi Kitan

I've finished watching anime, Hakuouki season 1 and 2 within 2 days.

I cried at the end when all characters appeared on the sky, because MOST of them died in the

battlefield...

Just as the picture above shown,

the ending is very, very SAD!

T-T

But I love this anime anyway,

there's many warriors here are so cool!

Especially Hajime Saito!

Omg,

obsessed with him like crazy man!

Kazama Chikage & Hajime Saito

FAVORITE CHARACTERS!

Yay~

D:

Maybe after semester 1,

Mr. Mahendran not going to teach us Science now.

-cries-

before Mid Year Exam started,

his last class was at Wednesday (11th of May).

He's the best teacher in teaching Science,

he often talks some jokes with his experience abt Science,

I found it funny and interesting,

easy to understand in his lessons.

But maybe he'll become our P.E teacher,

DD:

Her insults are annoying and makes me wanna punch her on the face!

Guess what,

she said Dynasty Warriors sucks.

W.T.F?!

Hey,

that's the stuff I've like it so much.

and I have no fucking idea why she hate,

if she hate,

don't she just say it out loud la c'mon!

Damn hurt!!

And,

I haven't insult her pokemon game or what shit is that,

you see,

most of the time she insult my favorite things

and,

I SAID NOTHING!

Then she was like,

insulting like a freaking damn pro person.

I can't stand it anymore man,

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?

Is this fair?

She always thinks that she is VERY FAIR,

yeah, VERY.

-.-

I love Dynasty Warriors just because I wanted to learn more about the history in China,

it got me interesting.

And what about the pokemon?

wtf man,

they're getting even uglier than before.

And,

it is not real story or history or whatever.

Dynasty Warriors compare with Pokemon,

of course Dynasty Warriors are better than Pokemon la!

Pokemon,

just catch some 'pokemons' then level up or upgrade them or evolve them or BLAH!

and then fight some bosses..

Okay,

I didn't say anything bad about it,

but,

LOOK AT HER!

And what did she just said?

She insulted me 1st!

W.T.F IS HAPPENING?

Goddamn it,

I really wanted to die so badly man........

I stands for her insults for like dunno 3 or 4 years!

And she's getting even more overly man...

I can't stand it!

Look at this!

Look at it,

this is how I study my Perdagangan for Mid Year exam..

-sigh-

Still have 3 more chapters remaining,

I HAVE NO TIME TO STUDY OTHER SUBJECTS ADY!

-cries-

because I keep rushing to memorize and understand,

plus,

my BM is worse,

need some TIME to translate it and understand it..

时间过的真是快~

不知不觉，已经是五月了。

期中考就在下个星期的12号，

超级不安的说！

因为老师们将不会把 project 的分数加进考试里了。

真可恶....

我的目标是：

科学、英文、华语和会计都要通过！

我想我在期中考里一定会死得很惨的！成绩将会下降.....

-烦恼-

Its.. Sunday already!

Man,

so fast!

Now its ady Sunday morning ....

why time passes so fast!

-cries-

need to do so many stuffs,

printing Sejarah notes,

typing book review,

Perdagangan homework,

Chinese homework..

and then blah blah blah..

GONNA FINISHED THEM TODAY AT ONCE!

but except book review,

damn long,

need some time to do it.. so.. yeah..

=.=

And so..

Today,

teacher didn't blame us for the Perdagangan results.

Because some of us had passed up the Assignment that teacher asked us to do.

so..

I got 42% for it.. almost pass man.. but at least better than 0% like Assessment 1,

isn't it?

Well, not really 0%,

because I had done the project that teacher asked.

So I got 50% in Assessment 1.

Moral,

because of the 2nd questions don't know what they're talking about,

my Bahasa Melayu sucks btw.

So..

I got 40% for it,

last time is 80% something..

because it's asking about the moral values things that we've done in the work book,

so I know how to answer.

Maths,

forget about it.

Science....

hmmm..

Teacher haven't plus all the projects' marks yet,

so I'm still in unknown.

Bahasa Melayu,

just..

uhh

forget about it also.

Chinese,

teacher haven't mark yet, so yeah.

Sejarah,

I got 18% for it.

-sigh-

English,

I got 72%!

:3

So that's how my results looks like,

I know how dumb am I or how stupid am I..

that's why I have suicidal thoughts and depressions..

Hmph..

刚刚听见妈妈问我，

“不知道明天学校的人会允许我去上课吗？”

我呆怔了...

因为妈妈说爸爸没有接学校打来的电话。

如果是这样的话，

我早已有打算了。

那就是我去做工赚钱，来缴付学费。

当学校开始行动了，

我自然会退回家找多点工作来做，

不管多辛苦，

钱还是这样子赚的。

如果叫我去洗厕所，洗碗等等之类的。

只要是我会做的，尽量会把它做好。

因为....

我什么也不管了，

家里搞成这样，不得不劳动些才行呢！

反正我的梦想和愿望都不是那些律师啊，还是工作人士的。

所以，

那一点知识根本不会影响到‘我要成为一个面包师！’的。

而且，

那些酒店的老板不就是从扫地工人或洗碗做起的吗？

我觉得他们很伟大，

坚强，有能力。

我忽然好想成为像他们那么伟大。

但是，

我害怕长辈们会对我大失所望，

因为洗厕所，扫地和洗碗对他们来说，

不是一个好工作，而且还会很丢脸。

不过，

我们应该往好的方面想，

这些工作也是可以赚到点钱的。

加油~！:D

Tmr got Maths!

So..

I'm guaranteed my Science sure pass,

not 'A' but at least Pass.

some question I don't know, but that's not much, only 3 questions in Paper 2.

And,

tmr is the BAD DAY,

told ya that I hate most is Thursday,

MATHS!!!

PERDAGANGAN!!

SIVIK!!!

gonna die man :(

SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME RIGHT AWAY!

I don't wanna keep living on this Earth,

because,

I'm USELESS!

-sigh-

明天就考试了！

明天就要开考了，

超不安的！

我很担心明天的科学会出些什么问题，

如果可以的话，

能不能给我一次预告梦？

可以看见什么问题将会出现，

然后让我有充足的准备！

加油~！！

但是...

-哀悼-

其它科目我不保证我会通过，

因为在那些科目中，

大多数都是应用马来文...

明知道我的马来文有多差劲...

超烂的！！！

唉....

可能不可以实现奶奶的话了，

-无奈....-

对于没有信心的我，

能成功吗？

因为我实在差劲的说....

The reason why I'm typing Chinese here is because I wanted to improve my Mandarin..

long time my mom never make something at home...

This morning,

my mom made Cai Ban as our breakfast,

I don't really like it cause' the vegetables inside taste awfully weird.

So just now I only ate 2 of them,

just in case my mom ask this and that..

But this is "1 st" time my mom made foods in home,

last time when I was young,

she made a lot.

Nowadays,

because of schools,

she have to fetch my sisters here and there.

No time for her to made stuffs for us to eat..

Afternoon,

my mom made something looks like Roti Canai but with vege,

I ate that when I was young,

it was tasty..

And,

I don't know what's my mom going to make in dinner

-laughs-

Thaipusam is on tmr..

Tomorrow is a holiday!

but lots of works to do..

-sigh-

I hate form 4!!!

T.T

I wanna cry...

so many works, folios and book reviews...

-cries-

even holiday got one thing that I'm happy with,

is no need to go to school and increase my homework's population

xD

whee~