You think that I want to see is it?? grr..

God...

after Pamela borrowed an A4 paper test pad from me,

she start to write so many things that hope her boyfriend will forgive her...

my god,

what kind of girl is she??

o.o

she be with her boyfriend's friend so near you know,

and Shaun see them holding hands together like a real couples...

=.=

please la,

got boyfriend ady also need to find the another 1...

see this playgirl?

she don't even know that the real playgirl is herself...

You know after she wrote the paper with many words on it,

she let Kar Wei to read and then help her to post it to her boyfriend,

what kind of true heart is this??

if she really want to forgive by her boyfriend,

she can post it herself with a true heart,

but she didn't...

When Kar Wei read the paper,

I said,

'wow, so many words!!'

I was like,

acting.

then she said,

'don't read people's secret la Eunice!'

......

that's what she said to me.

I was like...

=.="

thinking,

'you think that I want to read it?? I don't even care A THING about you!!! Why?? because you betrayed your boyfriend and don't have a heart to apologize it... I'm just acting, and you'll like.. so sensitive.. wtf..'

-sigh-

so other people please don't be like this girl,

she's a playgirl and she didn't realize it...

You know last year when she talk about playgirl,

she was like,

so pro you know!

and she did some points of playgirl will do....

that's her...

=.="

wtf~

Mid Year exam is near.... *sigh*

Mid Year Exam 2010 is in this Friday,

21st of May...

-cries-

I heard that Maths got so many topics...

but my father said that I must remember the formula then okay ady...

BUT!

I'm still felt so panic,

why?

because got so many Form 3 Maths topics' formula I don't even know....

I know some, but I dunno when to use that formula...

haiz..

so,

I'm gonna fail my Maths again...

I'm not that smart in Maths...

why they make Maths so important??

I know is important but,

the Mathematic founders has create so many freaking formula....

ARGH!!

I hate'em!!

Science I think okay la...

some know some dunno....

normal...

BM worst,

no need to think about that I can pass that!

I only knew few of words...

=.=

I'm worst in writing..

but summary okay la...

normal....

English...

God,

my English is worst...

-cries-

BROKEN ENGLISH

WTF!!!

Chinese okay la...

normal can pass...

KH,

no need to think about that,

I'll fail that!

History, Geography and all of that sure fail...

-sigh-

I'm the stupidest in the whole world......

=\

all fail...

that's why I wish that I can die in no feeling....

so that my parents won't get upset on me...

=]

I didn't go to school today...

I didn't go to school today,

why?

because my parents can't fetch me after the extra class,

-sigh-

they always like that...

if transporters,

I'll have to wait till 4:30 pm...

my god,

so I ask my father to fetch me,

and then,

he said,

'2 o'clock I have a meeting...' blah blah blah!

and I asked my mom to fetch me,

my mom use another words to ignore me...

she said,

'I call transporter to fetch you...'

my god,

why they cannot fetch me???

I've been left by friends,

even family also....

-cries-

the next day,

my mom didn't woke me up,

she straight away call the transporter that I'm not going to school,

when I woke up at almost 6 o'clock,

my mom said that don't want to go la...

-sigh-

why can't they fetch me......

I've been lonely and lonely....

-cries-

I wonder why they don't want to fetch me to the school...

you know, all parents fetch their children because they love them...

some parents got work to do still fetching them...

some parents are too busy,

so they sent their child to the transporters....

but what about mine parents???

they're so relax man....

when I came back home,

I saw my mom is not THAT busy...

she is at her room with the loud musics, she'll sleep sometimes,

and sometimes she went to meet her friends and blah blah blah.....

when I call my father to fetch,

he always said that he's busy,

because he's busy to see that bitch....

-sigh-

look, they're not busy at all.....

why should I be in this kind of family...

I finally know the truth....

I finally knew it!!!

Remember what yesterday I've wrote that I dunno what reason that they angry each other?

Because my parents sat down at a restaurant and eating dim sum.

there's a guy which is selling durian,

he asked my parents want to buy it,

and my mom was like looking at the durians,

all durian not nice...

so she say she don't want,

then father saw he cut so many,

so he want it all of them..

mom was like

o.o

and then my mom said the durians is from Thailand,

not 猫山王...

I dunno my father got listen or not la..

-sigh-

he bought that for RM 200+!!

I was like shocked...

RM 200 something still want to buy,

and then dunno mom or father very upset about the money...

and then they came home, mom was cutting the durians..

there's whole bag of it man...

so many!!!

O_O

and then some durian not nice...

some better la,

my mom kept them into a Tupperware..

and guess what?

when he knew all the durians are bad,

then he pack all the un-open durians and put them into the bag

and

he throw all the durians inside the Tupperware also!!!

omg...

then he go find the person who sell the durians,

he bring hammer with him man...

o.o"

then he was like want to fight with that person,

so many people are watching...

=.=

then when the person take some dunno what weapon la..

my father scared and start to flee!

When I finished listen to this story from Ivy,

I was like....

wtf at the last part...

I wonder what happened to my father,

why he suddenly become like that??

and my mom said he's kinda mental problem,

I got a shocked while mom said this...

I can't believe that my father has changed,

he's not the past year's father anymore...

I was sad,

I cried yesterday night,

father got too much of stress from that bitch.

-cries-

I hope that she can stop giving stress to my father and let him go.....

she make my life become darker and darker,

she've destroyed our love of father...

我已经失去父爱了....

father have so many problems because of her,

he'll always came home late because of her,

he earn money so hard because of her,

he has done so many things to her!!!

why can't she let my father go??

-cries-

my father had too much stress,

so he become like that.....

if I can,

I'll take him to a doctor and decrease his stress...

-sigh-

it's getting worst and worst....

God,

please save our father, I don't want him to have mental problems or something like that...

I want him to be as normal as past years....

please....

I'm getting lonely in the house....

I'm getting lonely and lonely nowadays...
because my parents keep angry at each other for no reason...
(I dunno la... cuz they didn't tell me...)
-sigh-

Today is Mother's Day,
and we suppose to go and have a dinner with my grandma from my father's side..
but my mom didn't go....
I felt...
kinda weird...
1st time that my mom didn't attend with us to a dinner....
things are getting worst,
I was keep praying to God for giving us peace to our family...
I keep doing that last time,
but still,
things haven't change..
It's getting bad and worst.....
-cries-
wwhhyy....
I don't want this things happen to our family....
I think of the stuffs, that lovely moment I've been...
it seems like a dream when I was small...
I can't believe that our lovely moment last time,
and now it become a dream!!!
-sobs-

I hope things will going better and better, please don't getting worst..
I can't stand it anymore~
please......
>_<

My god, I missed his race on Sports Day! DDx

Yesterday was testing of Sports Day,
I saw him sitting in front of me,
then later he went to race,
I saw him running so fast and so cool~
x3
so many laps man...
I dunno how many laps he had run,
and then I saw he's the last place while running with the others...
o.o
then I was like screaming,
Ganbatte kudasai~~!!!!
then he was like running 1 lap,
he stopped at the start place there.....
he walk back to his place slowly,
then sit down and rest...
I keep looking at him, but he never knew...
but that is awesome,
isn't it??
xDDD

The next day was the REAL Sports Day,
I didn't see him for a whole day man....
before I'm leaving,
AND THEN!!!
Secondary Racing started,
what the shit la...
I was so sad man....
Never see him.......
And I saw Shaun was like...
downstairs helping the injured people...

-sigh-
no chance to ask him did he saw zhe...
-cries-

My face is so painful after doing the press pimple thing...

-cries-
so painful!!!
my god, but...
they said, cannot eat fried or something blah blah blah...
I wanted to eat Famous Amos cookie...
T.T
My favorite cookie man...
x3
stupid pimples...
you know, when she press the pimples,
I was lke screaming,
Tasukete Kudasai!!!
(help in Japanese, 'Kudasai' means in danger)
-sigh-
my tears was like...
start going out..
T.T
and I scared my sis said something to me,
so I just tahan la..
tsk!
I hate it la...
I DON'T WANNA BE PRETTY!!
DDx
( I don't know why)
I want to be normal.....
not because of painful la,
cuz I've no best friends at all!
and not close to people...
just -sigh-
I wish I can die man..
I wonder why I'll come to this world....
to let people bully?? laugh??
and I'm stupid, yes..
that's why..
I'm a rubbish....
my mom said, my sis said,
everyone said it.....
little thing also cannot stand...
-sigh-

wish I can die with no feeling........
^_^
then everyone not going to worried such a rubbish kid anymore...
but I still don't know when I will did this...
hmmmm.....
and I want to be alone!!!
that will be better and awesome for me... =)