I've finally realize why am I so afraid of going downstairs and have breakfast with my parents during holidays,
it's because of my father was there.
And the presence of him will making me realize the problems that we're facing,
reality is cruel.
Because of him,
our own happiness got ruined.
We're facing money problem almost every time,
and yet he still gave money to that bitch even we're so poor.
I'm sorry to say it but,
I know I can't say my father like that..
BUT,
doesn't he realize so many problems we're facing now?
We're the one who really in need of money,
but why he still doing the same thing?
giving that bitch money instead of us?
I need to get a job but have to prepare for facing my parents first,
maybe they'll ignore but,
really have no idea already..
I feel useless!
I need them to know that if want more money, we have to go earn it of course...
and I don't even know what job my father doing for 17 years,
for sure it is a private matter which cannot let the government know.
I'm really admire my friends' parents,
at least their parents' job is approved by the government,
and have a peaceful life where no problems happening around..
I don't know why my father so smart but yet very blur,
I started to realize that 17 years (or more, maybe)!!
Still not getting better.
Don't have a peaceful and permanent shelter that we can stay,
I don't know my father got think about this or not,
we don't have a nice and peace shelter to live,
and yet,
he still can ignore that seriously big problem and go wandering around outside with that bitch.
The moment I graduate in college,
I must leave this house and get my own life which I didn't experienced before in my childhood.
I'll send them money of course,
isn't that a MUST to do for us to reward back our family?
it's because of my father was there.
And the presence of him will making me realize the problems that we're facing,
reality is cruel.
Because of him,
our own happiness got ruined.
We're facing money problem almost every time,
and yet he still gave money to that bitch even we're so poor.
I'm sorry to say it but,
I know I can't say my father like that..
BUT,
doesn't he realize so many problems we're facing now?
We're the one who really in need of money,
but why he still doing the same thing?
giving that bitch money instead of us?
I need to get a job but have to prepare for facing my parents first,
maybe they'll ignore but,
really have no idea already..
I feel useless!
I need them to know that if want more money, we have to go earn it of course...
and I don't even know what job my father doing for 17 years,
for sure it is a private matter which cannot let the government know.
I'm really admire my friends' parents,
at least their parents' job is approved by the government,
and have a peaceful life where no problems happening around..
I don't know why my father so smart but yet very blur,
I started to realize that 17 years (or more, maybe)!!
Still not getting better.
Don't have a peaceful and permanent shelter that we can stay,
I don't know my father got think about this or not,
we don't have a nice and peace shelter to live,
and yet,
he still can ignore that seriously big problem and go wandering around outside with that bitch.
The moment I graduate in college,
I must leave this house and get my own life which I didn't experienced before in my childhood.
I'll send them money of course,
isn't that a MUST to do for us to reward back our family?
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